Wednesday, December 31, 2008

don't leave too fast



Burst me, I'm full of joy as much as tears
Pride and fears that ever so quickly re-emerge
Lurch around, sin, but I know
God'll complete the good work He started in me
when my Saviour comes again.

Goodbye 2008, don't leave too fast
Last things to savour and be thankful for
More friends, closer fellowship with God and His men
Advent caroling and Christmas singing
Sweating, kisses, squabbles, snow
Mowing school books

Come big 9, what's in store?
More good stuff, I know.
Now I have just one prayer:
weaker, humbler.

So I can always run into the embrace of my Father.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

In the Bleak Midwinter

In the bleak midwinter, frost wind made moan,
earth stood hard as iron, water like a stone;
snow had fallen, snow on snow, snow on snow,
in the bleak midwinter, long long ago.

Our God, heaven cannot hold him, nor earth sustain;
heaven and earth shall flee away when he comes to reign.
In the bleak midwinter a stable place sufficed
the Lord God Almighty, Jesus Christ.

Angels and archangels may have gathered there,
cherubim and seraphim thronged the air;
but only his mother, in her maiden bliss,
worshiped the beloved with a kiss.

What can I give him, poor as I am?
If I were a shepherd, I would bring a lamb;
if I were a Wise Man, I would do my part;

yet what I can I give him: give my heart.

Christina Rosetti, 1872
Gustav Holst, 1906


Thursday, December 4, 2008

Youtube choirs

2 clips an audience member recorded and uploaded: The ACJC Combined Choir at the Cathedral of Bratislava, Slovakia, on May 30, 2008. Long overdue, but they give a bare glimpse at the magical experience that day.


Soleram, arr by Fabian Obispo


Hymn to the Creator of Light, John Rutter

Ok, but the UST singers' version of Hymn is clearer.

Monday, December 1, 2008

8 days, every week

So, every week, I've been counting down to the end of the semester and my trip to Philly. I'm 2 days away from my last paper on English phonology and 8 days to Hello, America!

I think some reflection is necessary, although this is probably going to be the 3, 894, 798, 432nd time you're reading another reflection about school.

School this semester was manageable, with minimal or no readings at all for 3 classes. What's more, I'm relatively more free since I only tutor one kid instead of three (a major factor of my burn-out in April). You know...they say, when the going gets easy, the easy gets going.

What I've learnt this semester is really fascinating too: sex and sexuality in Ming theatre, Aurangzeb of Mogul and his rule in India, the Abrahamic/Eastern religion divide, implicit agents in passivised and intransitivised sentences, rules of velarisation, aspiration and others in English, and holding the floor in a conversation.

Fellowship has been refreshing and amazing because it was a weekly time of coming to fellowship excited about learning God's Word, and returning fulfilled and heartily bloated with the mysteries of the Gospel and God's kingdom. What's even happier and worthy to know - most of us share this eagerness and joy together. We've also had Liang as an esteemed guest once. Mr Zhu, if you ever stop BSF, we warmly welcome you! I'm really thankful for a community of Christians like Geri, Ollie, Marcus, Tosh, Drea, Debs(Yap), Sid, Amelia, and of course, Caleb, whom I can share about the Gospel and the Bible passionately with because they are also passionate about it.

Also, my recent occupations are the ACJC Alumni Choir Advent Concert, Happy Camp planning and packing up. So many silly things to buy and do, especially because I'm doing them myself. They can be really mundane, like "Buy tongue scraper. Buy Danzen and Difflam." but I'm excited about my first White Christmas. What better way to spend it with loved ones, snow, and good music for God. I can't wait to buy Benetint, live under the Tucsonian sky and finally escape from the bell-curve system, which is one of the two things I want to protest about my school (I'm happy with the rest of it!).

Ok, so Danzen, Difflam. Also, Leftose, Clarinase, Paracetamol, Chlorpheniramine.
Traveler's check, winter clothes, laundry bag...and Little Nyonya and toothpastefordinner.






Of course, my phonology paper on Wednesday too.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Is the Gospel for believers?

The Gospel is the reason why we don't turn our tables against God after being gratuitously saved by faith and grace. Turning our tables against Him means reversing the terms on how sanctification happens - by determining our walk with Him and our transformation on our own terms, by our own effort. We fall time and again, but guilt has no hold over us; obedience to God is inseparable from love - it's not sterile duty because it's a response to the Gospel -the power of God that proves Him to be loving, just, wise and ever so majestic- because the Gospel applies to Christians every single day.

On sanctification, Jerry Bridges writes,

When our sense of guilt is taken away because our consciences are cleansed by the blood of Christ, we are freed up to love Him with all our ears and souls and minds. In fact, not only are we freed up, we are motivated in a positive sense to love Hm in this wholehearted way. Our love will be spontaneous in an outpouring of gratitude to Him and fervent desire to obey Him.

Jesus said, "He who has been forgiven little loves little" (Luke 7:47). In the context of that statement He essentially said the converse is also true: Those who have been forgiven much love much. Therefore, we can say that the extent to which we realize the total forgiveness and cleansing from those sins, will determine the measure of our love to God.

So if we want to grow in our love for God and in the acceptable obedience that flows out of that love, we must keep coming back to the Cross and the cleansing blood of Jesus Christ. That is why it is so important that we keep the gospel before us every day. Because we sin every day, and our consciences condemn us every day (though Christ has removed sin's guilt and reign in our lives), we need the gospel every day.

Monday, November 10, 2008

(some) verses that make me cry


"And he humbled you and let you hunger and fed you with manna, which you did not know, nor did your fathers know, that he might make you know that man does not live by bread alone, but man lives by every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord.
Deut 8:3


“O my son Absalom, my son, my son Absalom! Would I had died instead of you, O Absalom, my son, my son!”
II Samuel 18:33


"Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth?
Tell me, if you have understanding.
Who determined its measurements — surely you know!
Or who stretched the line upon it?
On what were its bases sunk,
or who laid its cornerstone,
when the morning stars sang together
and all the sons of God shouted for joy?"
Job 38:4-7 (through 41 actually)


"How can I give you up, O Ephraim?
How can I hand you over, O Israel?
How can I make you like Admah?
How can I treat you like Zeboiim?"
Hos 11:8


"God, be merciful to me, a sinner!"
Luke 18:13


"Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?"
Matt 27:46

"But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God."
I Cor 1:27-29


For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.
Heb 12:11


He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.
Rev 21:4

Thursday, October 30, 2008

'World's Most Relaxing Room'

Never mind the part about evolution - I would skip a day of school to spend thirty minutes (okay, maybe one hour) in this room!

Crisis, what crisis? Ten minutes in Richard Wiseman's room and you’ll wonder what all the fuss is about
Times Online
October 21, 2008
Will Pavia


Never mind that winter is almost upon us, that we may already be in recession and that we are all fractious, glum and late for our trains. Today, for all of us, salvation is at hand.

A British psychologist has developed a panacea to lighten the darkening mood. In a campus on the edge of Hatfield, Hertfordshire, Richard Wiseman claims to have created the most relaxing room in the world.

The space brings together the lessons of many years of scientific research on how to relax a human being: there is soft matting, the scent of lavender, diffuse green light and gentle music. Every evening this week frazzled bankers, pension fund managers and all those beaten down by the worries of the world can visit this magical room and find peace.

Professor Wiseman will measure their responses, make modifications according to their demands, and show-case his room as a must-have facility for businesses and schools.

Yesterday the professor held a preview, for students at the University of Hertfordshire and various jumpy members of the media. As I arrived, Professor Wiseman was putting the finishing touches to his room. “I have never been so stressed in my life,” he said.

Half an hour later he stood at the entrance to his room, backlit by its green and blue light, the sound of a woman’s voice rising and falling gently behind him, accompanied by a string ensemble and a Tibetan singing bowl. “The music is continuous, there are no sudden changes - from an evolutionary perspective, change is associated with danger,” he said.

The scent of lavender would stimulate beta-waves, relaxing our brains. “People have looked into all these different elements before,” he said. “But no one has put them all together. We are looking to see if, all together, they will make you super-relaxed.”

Six of us took our places on mats on the floor. Suki Thiara, 22, a marketing student, was worrying about finding a job next year. Tobi Alli-Usman, 21, was worrying about his events management business and his degree. I was worrying about the global financial crisis, and whether I had bought the wrong kind of screws for some shelves I was hoping to put up.

The music was euphoric, the green light soothing. A smoke machine periodically blew white clouds above our heads. It felt as if I were lying inside an advert for green tea.

“Am I relaxed?” I wondered. My heart was throbbing at 86 beats a minute, but after a few moments staring into the blue it dropped to 74. I even considered loosening my tie.

Ms Thiara said: “I feel like we are sinking away from everything. I am floating away like an angel.” Mr Alli-Usman put his thoughts in order. “Now I can pick out the things to focus on and it doesn’t seem as if there is so much to do,” he said.

I was unconvinced at first. Later I realised that I had not once thought about the global financial crisis, nor the crisis surrounding my shelving unit. I left, wondering where I might get a nice cup of green tea.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

For November 1



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Thursday, October 16, 2008

Reading about Suffering

"When one man dies, one chapter is not torn out of the book, but translated into a better language; and every chapter must be so translated; God employs several translators; some pieces are translated by age, some by sickness, some by war, some by justice; but God's hand is in every translation, and His hand shall bind up all our scattered leaves again for that library where every book shall lie open to one another...So this bell calls us all; but how much more me, who am brought so near the door by this sickness." 
"I can read my affliction as a correction, or as a mercy, and I confess I know not how to read it. How should I understand this illness? I cannot conclude, though death conclude me. If it is a correction indeed, let me translate it and read it as a mercy; for though it may appear to be a correction, I can have no greater proof of Your mercy than to die in Thee and by that death be united to Him who died for me."

John Donne (1572-1631), Devotions Upon Emergent Occasions 

Desiring God

O God, You are my God; earnestly I seek You;
my soul thirsts for You;
my flesh faints for You,
as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
So I have looked upon You in the sanctuary,
beholding Your power and glory.

Because Your steadfast love is better than life,
my lips will praise You.
So I will bless You as long as I live;
in Your name I will lift up my hands.

My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food,
and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips,
when I remember you upon my bed,
and meditate on you in the watches of the night;
for You have been my help,
and in the shadow of Your wings I will sing for joy.
My soul clings to You;
Your right hand upholds me.

Psalm 63:1-9

Monday, October 13, 2008

Yet another persecution

Hindu Threat to Christians: Convert or Flee
The New York Times
October 12, 2008

BOREPANGA, India — The family of Solomon Digal was summoned by neighbors to what serves as a public square in front of the village tea shop.

They were ordered to get on their knees and bow before the portrait of a Hindu preacher. They were told to turn over their Bibles, hymnals and the two brightly colored calendar images of Christ that hung on their wall. Then, Mr. Digal, 45, a Christian since childhood, was forced to watch his Hindu neighbors set the items on fire.

“ ‘Embrace Hinduism, and your house will not be demolished,’ ” Mr. Digal recalled being told on that Wednesday afternoon in September. “ ‘Otherwise, you will be killed, or you will be thrown out of the village.’ ”

India, the world’s most populous democracy and officially a secular nation, is today haunted by a stark assault on one of its fundamental freedoms. Here in eastern Orissa State, riven by six weeks of religious clashes, Christian families like the Digals say they are being forced to abandon their faith in exchange for their safety.

The forced conversions come amid widening attacks on Christians here and in at least five other states across the country, as India prepares for national elections next spring.

The clash of faiths has cut a wide swath of panic and destruction through these once quiet hamlets fed by paddy fields and jackfruit trees. Here in Kandhamal, the district that has seen the greatest violence, more than 30 people have been killed, 3,000 homes burned and over 130 churches destroyed, including the tin-roofed Baptist prayer hall where the Digals worshiped. Today it is a heap of rubble on an empty field, where cows blithely graze.

Across this ghastly terrain lie the singed remains of mud-and-thatch homes. Christian-owned businesses have been systematically attacked. Orange flags (orange is the sacred color of Hinduism) flutter triumphantly above the rooftops of houses and storefronts.

India is no stranger to religious violence between Christians, who make up about 2 percent of the population, and India’s Hindu-majority of 1.1 billion people. But this most recent spasm is the most intense in years.

It was set off, people here say, by the killing on Aug. 23 of a charismatic Hindu preacher known as Swami Laxmanananda Saraswati, who for 40 years had rallied the area’s people to choose Hinduism over Christianity.

The police have blamed Maoist guerrillas for the swami’s killing. But Hindu radicals continue to hold Christians responsible.

In recent weeks, they have plastered these villages with gruesome posters of the swami’s hacked corpse. “Who killed him?” the posters ask. “What is the solution?”

Behind the clashes are long-simmering tensions between equally impoverished groups: the Panas and Kandhas. Both original inhabitants of the land, the two groups for ages worshiped the same gods. Over the past several decades, the Panas for the most part became Christian, as Roman Catholic and Baptist missionaries arrived here more than 60 years ago, followed more recently by Pentecostals, who have proselytized more aggressively.

Meanwhile, the Kandhas, in part through the teachings of Swami Laxmanananda, embraced Hinduism. The men tied the sacred Hindu white thread around their torsos; their wives daubed their foreheads with bright red vermilion. Temples sprouted.

Hate has been fed by economic tensions as well, as the government has categorized each group differently and given them different privileges.

The Kandhas accused the Panas of cheating to obtain coveted quotas for government jobs. The Christian Panas, in turn, say their neighbors have become resentful as they have educated themselves and prospered.

Their grievances have erupted in sporadic clashes over the past 15 years, but they have exploded with a fury since the killing of Swami Laxmanananda.

Two nights after his death, a Hindu mob in the village of Nuagaon dragged a Catholic priest and a nun from their residence, tore off much of their clothing and paraded them through the streets.

The nun told the police that she had been raped by four men, a charge the police say was borne out by a medical examination. Yet no one was arrested in the case until five weeks later, after a storm of media coverage. Today, five men are under arrest in connection with inciting the riots. The police say they are trying to find the nun and bring her back here to identify her attackers.

Given a chance to explain the recent violence, Subash Chauhan, the state’s highest-ranking leader of Bajrang Dal, a Hindu radical group, described much of it as “a spontaneous reaction.”

He said in an interview that the nun had not been raped but had had regular consensual sex.

On Sunday evening, as much of Kandhamal remained under curfew, Mr. Chauhan sat in the hall of a Hindu school in the state capital, Bhubaneshwar, beneath a huge portrait of the swami. A state police officer was assigned to protect him round the clock. He cupped a trilling Blackberry in his hand.

Mr. Chauhan denied that his group was responsible for forced conversions and in turn accused Christian missionaries of luring villagers with incentives of schools and social services.

He was asked repeatedly whether Christians in Orissa should be left free to worship the god of their choice. “Why not?” he finally said, but he warned that it was unrealistic to expect the Kandhas to politely let their Pana enemies live among them as followers of Jesus.

“Who am I to give assurance?” he snapped. “Those who have exploited the Kandhas say they want to live together?”

Besides, he said, “they are Hindus by birth.”

Hindu extremists have held ceremonies in the country’s indigenous belt for the past several years intended to purge tribal communities of Christian influence.

It is impossible to know how many have been reconverted here, in the wake of the latest violence, though a three-day journey through the villages of Kandhamal turned up plenty of anecdotal evidence.

A few steps from where the nun had been attacked in Nuagaon, five men, their heads freshly shorn, emerged from a soggy tent in a relief camp for Christians fleeing their homes.

The men had also been summoned to a village meeting in late August, where hundreds of their neighbors stood with machetes in hand and issued a firm order: Get your heads shaved and bow down before our gods, or leave this place.

Trembling with fear, Daud Nayak, 56, submitted to a shaving, a Hindu sign of sacrifice. He drank, as instructed, a tumbler of diluted cow dung, considered to be purifying.

In the eyes of his neighbors, he reckoned, he became a Hindu.

In his heart, he said, he could not bear it.

All five men said they fled the next day with their families. They refuse to return.

In another village, Birachakka, a man named Balkrishna Digal and his son, Saroj, said they had been summoned to a similar meeting and told by Hindu leaders who came from nearby villages that they, too, would have to convert. In their case, the ceremony was deferred because of rumors of Christian-Hindu clashes nearby.

For the time being, the family had placed an orange flag on their mud home. Their Hindu neighbors promised to protect them.

Here in Borepanga, the family of Solomon Digal was not so lucky. Shortly after they recounted their Sept. 10 Hindu conversion story to a reporter in the dark of night, the Digals were again summoned by their neighbors. They were scolded and fined 501 rupees, or about $12, a pinching sum here.

The next morning, calmly clearing his cauliflower field, Lisura Paricha, one of the Hindu men who had summoned the Digals, confirmed that they had been penalized. Their crime, he said, was to talk to outsiders.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Recent occupations

Okay, my lull from work has ended. Thankfully and surprisingly, I think I'm going to enjoy the rest of the workload that I've to complete for this year.

I've one last essay to write (okay, on top of three tests and a play presentation). It's 50% of the grade, yes, but I'm very, very thankful most of my major assignments have been cleared up about three weeks ago. This means I'd have more time to prepare for applications for my semester abroad at the University of Arizona, Tucson, AZ. That were some hiccups here and there for my application to U of A, and sometimes they really do seem quite daunting. But as Caleb says, I shouldn't let these matters trouble and make me lose sight of this wonderful opportunity. In other words, thankfulness is what will keep things in perspective - God gives grace through each glitch so that I may come out of it with a heart of gratitude and joy.

Also, I have two more issues of kids' devotionals to complete for this year. On hindsight, this opportunity to serve God outside the music ministry has been refreshing. I remember the first concern my elder had was my age, which can be an indicator of my level of spiritual maturity. So I have been kept a tab on since my first attempt at writing part of the devotional for primary school kids in my church. I'm thankful for humility, to be willing to learn and also, to be corrected for my awkward Mandarin phrases and wrong words (ha). It can get challenging sometimes because of the tension between educating these young minds as much as possible and making the truth accessible to them. I've learnt that the Holy Spirit gives wisdom for discernment, and faith that God will open these minds to richer truths in His time.

Lastly, there's the Advent concert! Preparations are well under way and I'm excited about the music. (Also, this means spending more time to practise during the week). This repertoire includes some of our classic Christmas carols, such as Noel Nouvelet, Have Yourself A Merry Christmas and Mrs Wilson's arrangement of O Come, O Come Emmanuel, alongside new pieces such as Javier Busto's Te Lucis Ante Terminum, Ola Gjeilo's Unto Us A Child Is Born and Gunnar Ericksson's Den blida vår är inne. This concert will be on December 6, 2008 (Sat) at the Singapore Art Museum, but it's by invitation only heh. Excited about singing beautiful music again!


The Anglo-Chinese Junior College Alumni Choir
National Day 2008 at Singapore Art Museum


Lastly, I'm also very excited about my semester abroad! Can't wait!

Friday, September 26, 2008

Goo-Goo

Christmas 2004


Braille, 2006


Earth Day 2007


Beatrix Potter's birthday


Lego's 50th anniversary


Velasquez's birthday


Doodle 4 Google (US)




Happy birthday, Google!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Update

The mid-term break is finally here. I have been very stressed by the influx of assignment deadlines and presentations over the past two weeks. In fact, most of the assignments and presentations for this semester were due last week. Also, on the last day for international exchange students to apply to University of Arizona, my already-submitted documents were rejected because I goofed up. I submitted the wrong forms and I didn't check that I qualified to go on exchange to UA. So on top of schoolwork, I ran around school, the bank and MOE to get my documents re-done.

And I also fell sick, which complicated matters because I couldn't concentrate well and I ended up working well into night.

But God was faithful in showing His kindness, mercy and grace over this same period of time. Some people may choose to adopt the godless view that things naturally get done in the end, but I know that it is God whom I delivered all things to. He parts the Red Seas I encounter, so that I may be able to stand under trials - and we just need to pray for God's enabling to be disciplined by different troubles.

During the lapse between the need for supplication and God's providence, the Psalms tell us to wait eagerly upon Him through praise and faith in His plan and providence. In this way, we yield peace and righteousness because we were willing to be trained by these difficult times that easily makes us worry. And so it's true! that it's a sweet thing to be able to trust in Jesus, just to take Him at His Word, 'Thus says the Lord!". There is no fear of judgement or wrath before God the Father, for we have been made favourable to Him through the blood Christ shed on the cross. Nor is there guilt because God has forgiven our sins and imputed Christ's righteousness to us.

While talking with Si about some of her friends who were antagonistic against their broken families, I was reminded that God requires our total submission before true, complete sanctification can start. Do we seek to justify our anger, jealousy, pride, resentment or ungodly speech based on 'natural' physiological and social factors? God wants us to turn these fruit of the flesh over to Him so that we may be truly sanctified. Surely sanctification isn't about talking terms with God on which parts of the old self we want to keep, and which are the ones that we can more easily abandon. The commandment of old is that we love God with all our heart, mind and soul.

My ideal way to spend this recess week is to do nothing school-related, like summer, and read and think about things that I'm really interested in right now, like Christian consumerist culture and theology on music and performance. But I think some schoolwork is inevitable. I don't hate school, but it's usually just less palatable.


Last thing, I'm looking forward to getting this gift. It's a collection of essays on biblical manhood and womanhood from various people such as Don Carson, John Piper, Elisabeth Elliot and Wayne Grudem. I'm excited...more books to read!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Scared, stressed and agitated

I had said in my alarm,
“I am cut off from your sight!”
But you heard the voice of my pleas for mercy
when I cried to you for help.

Wait for the Lord;
be strong, and let your heart take courage;
wait for the Lord!

Psalm 30:22, 27:14

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Wedlock

Rev Malcolm Tan, pastor in-charge of Barker Road Methodist Church, spoke on I John 4 today at a truly Christian matrimony.

'...whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.' (v7)
All forms of love, even when corrupted or distorted by Man, has ultimately no other source than God. Because God is Love and He has, in creating us in His image, instilled this essential quality in us. Yet, love is the mark of a true Christian, and is distinguished from love that non-Christians can offer as God-enabled love transcends pettiness, selfishness and always initiates and does not calculate reciprocity. Only those who have been born again can experience God and love people in return. Only through Christ can we love. And knowing God is to have a personal relationship with Him, to recognise that His presence in our lives is very true and real. Mystics or psychologists may try their various mystical methods to 'experience the Higher Power', such as re-birthing techniques, but we often find these practices are not different from the occult, and turn out to be unbiblical. Love is the mark of a true Christian.

'In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent His only Son into the world, so that we might live through Him.' (v8)
True love is life-affirming. It does not destroy, corrupt or tear down. A Christian who has an extramarital affair with another man on the claims of love is not validated, because marriage is corrupted. On the contrary, it is sin. God gave the prime example of life-affirming love through the death and resurrection of Christ, that we who have been dead in transgressions have been quickened to life and joy again. Jesus made the dead come alive while on earth, and we, His disciples, are equally able to do so by loving, for it revives the spiritually dead. It melts even the hardest heart.

'In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.' (v9)
Love always initiates. There will be times when love 'runs dry', when we stop making the first move of affection or concern because our spouse, boy-/girlfriend (I'll term them as 'partner' in short) is not reciprocating our love. And we say that our efforts are futile and we become discouraged or indifferent towards loving him/her. But God has set an example for us to follow, that because we have received His initiative salvific love, we are to follow in the steps of this generous love. That means not being calculative or engaging in corporate worldview that focuses on performance, efficiency and results. This is why Paul writes later on, "We love because He first loved us" (v19). Following God's initiative, salvific love explains why love is a mark of those who have received this love from God; it is impossible for a non-believer to commemorate God's love through Christ.

In addition to setting an example for us, His children, we know that God always makes the first move to love us, not out of any merit or favour we have earned in our ugly, filthy state back then, or in our new lives that are still being trained and refined for His holiness. God doesn't calculate how much we love Him before He loves us back (a mindset that is realistically human, but petty). God's words never return empty, but accomplishes that which He has purposed, and succeeds in the thing for which He sent it (Isa 55:11). Likewise, we should fulfill our pledge to be faithful and to love our partner.

And the central truth of life-affirming love through Christ that is God-motivated and God-given is beautifully summarised in v12, 'No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us.'

Friday, September 5, 2008

There Is a Higher Throne

There is a higher throne
Than all this world has known,
Where faithful ones from ev'ry tongue
Will one day come.
Before the Son we'll stand,
Made faultless through the Lamb;
Believing hearts find promised grace—
Salvation comes.

Hear heaven's voices sing;
Their thund'rous anthem rings
Through em'rald courts and sapphire skies.
Their praises rise.
All glory, wisdom, pow'r,
Strength, thanks, and honor are
To God our King, who reigns on high
Forevermore.

And there we'll find our home,
Our life before the throne;
We'll honor Him in perfect song
Where we belong.
He'll wipe each tear-stained eye
As thirst and hunger die.
The Lamb becomes our Shepherd King;
We'll reign with Him.

Words and Music by Keith & Kristyn Getty
Copyright © 2003 Thankyou Music

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

From schoolwork

The Gospel is the pivot of Christian faith for two reasons. Firstly, the Scripture is a portrayal of redemptive history; each book of the Old Testament foreshadows the coming of Christ and the salvation He accomplishes. The first of the Pentateuch, Genesis (Chapter 3), records that God has already prepared salvation through a Man (Christ's incarnation, read more in Nicene Creed) that will triumph over a Snake (Satan, who also represents death - his punishment for rebellion against God). The old covenantal system includes animal sacrifice, which foreshadows the final resolution of forgiveness of sin through Christ's death (hence He is called the Lamb of God in books such as Isaiah and Revelations). The New Testament testifies to how Christ has fulfilled the prophesies in the Old Testament, how people live as a result of the Gospel, and what is to come (the popularly misconceptualised Armageddeon and the New Heaven and New Earth afterwards). There are many other foreshadowings and fulfilment of Scripture that points to the Gospel - Christ's incarnation to come to earth to fulfill God's wrath against our sin on our behalf, and triumphing over Satan and death three days later through resurrection.

As opposed to what some earlier posts have articulated and tried to reconcile between faith and works, it is helpful to understand that humans are of total depravity, of utter sinfulness since the Fall. This is major-ly why we seek and put so much effort to 'do good', to look for philosophies in life or religions that guide us to being better. We don't go around looking for mantras to do bad, because it is inherent in us. It takes much more effort to forgive a person than to yell 'You evil creep!' at him.

A few quotations from the Bible - Ephesians 2:1 we are 'dead in our transgressions and sins', Romans 3:23 'all have sinned and have fall short of the glory of God' and Psalm 53:2-3 'Everyone has turned away' from seeking God, 'there is no one who does good, not even one'. Surely it can't be that our striving to do good, to bring joy to others, sometimes even at our own expense, is discounted all the way to zilch. And this comes to what our definition of 'doing good' is. 'Doing good' is prevalently seen as bringing benefit to others, sometimes even in moral ambiguity (such as white lies, or concealing truth), according to how we perceive it. It is often a compensation of guilt of what one has done wrong -sometimes in anticipation of it- to appease a stricken conscience. As a side statement, Scripture does not attest to the Kantian morality.

As John MacArthur succinctly puts it, what is good is that which is of eternal value, just as God is the absolute measure of standards. What good humanism approves is not seen as good in the eyes of God because it is not done with according to the recognition of God as the Measure of goodness, which is commonly understood as to the glory of God. Because of our total depravity, all is stained, in our motives, in our carrying out of actions. Our sin barricades us from seeking God, who is of utmost holiness, and therefore negates any eternal value a good deed may have. It is only which Christ can break because He has become the firstfruit of Christians by triumphing over death, so that those who believe in the Gospel by triumph over death (the second death: eternal separation from God and eternal anguish and suffering, cf Revelations 20:14-15, 21:8). The natural entailment of such a statement is that no one does good unless He is able to seek God, the only way to Him through which is Christ, as stated familiarly in John 14:6 'I am the way, the truth and the life, no one comes through to the Father except through Me.' I hope this answers an earlier request for a definition of goodness.

Interestingly, it is the 'exclusivity' or absolution that only Christ can save that accounts for:

(1) Why Jesus was seen as an anti-establishment figure during His earthly ministry: that all the good deeds that the Pharisees did, alongside their sinful deeds of pride and discrimination, are legalistic and thus, zilch in the eyes of God.

(2a) Why some convinced atheists or others of the like find that Christianity is 'restricting', or as a fellow classmate stated, a 'sweeping' statement, which is often seen as arrogant and preposterous.

(2b) Why some Christians dilute the absolution of Sola Christus by agreeing, as some fellow classmates have, that Christ or not, living by conscience (which is already tainted and humanistic, as argued earlier) is the 'right' way to afterlife. Ironically, we're going back to the worldly definition of goodness.

(3) Why people think God is so unloving and totally inconsistent with what He promises in John 3:16 'For God so loved the world'. If I may, this is amply expressed (along with suffering) by the Blackeyed Peas, "Since this guy is from above, you have got me, got me questionin', 'Where is the love?' "

Don Carson provides an enlightening exposition on God's love in his book, The Difficult Doctrine of the Love of God (1999), that the Bible conveys God's love in five different characteristics. They are related, definite but not any should be absolutised and single-dimensionalised into God's love. Two aspects that can be considered when it comes to the popular contention of loving even Hitlers who have accepted Christ and turned 180 degrees are: God's providential love and elective love. Every one is worthy of love, exemplified by the Noahic covenant, where common grace is extended to all. The Noahic covenant in Genesis 9:11 'Never again will all life be cut off by the waters of a flood'. Common grace is that which is freely given to all, God's people or not, as in Matthew 5:45 'He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous'. I'm totally sure no one can ever deny common grace. I'm really very sure that no one can ever say that God sucks because He's always only sending storms, literally, over his head, but not over his Christian friends. Or that he doesn't know when the sun rises because God only restricted the view of the sun to believers.

God's elective love tells us that God chooses people, not because of any merits/demerits these persons might have to accumulate favour like in popularity contests, but out of love. If you would allow me to use this analogy, why a man ends up with a certain woman as his wife cannot be explained by popularity contests. In non-flings and non-puppy love relationships, a man doesn't change his wife because another girl is more intelligent, or is less impatient, less suspicious. Sure, there may be other girls who display such qualities, but he loves his wife just because he loves his wife, not any merits the wife has earned whatsoever.

This explains why God chooses His people, exemplified by his choice of Jacob over Esau, as in Romans 9:11-13.
'Yet, before the twins were born or had done anything good or bad - in order that God's purpose in election might stand: not by works but by Him who calls...just as it was written: "Jacob I loved, but Esau I hated.'

In accordance with God's providential display of love to all mankind, and to his sovereign choosing of people, it is hard for Christians to love enemies out of own strength, but through the Gospel. As Jerry Bridges writes in Respectable Sins: Confronting the Sins We Tolerate (2006), one cannot love enemies unless he comes to realisation that no personal offense by another can surmount to one's spiritual debt to God (that Christ carried punishment that was meant for us because of our sinful nature, cf Romans 5:8, Isaiah 53:4-6). It is difficult to love one's enemies, but through what Bridges calls 'dependent responsibility', Christians are able to fulfill this along with training (cf Hebrews 12) as long as he depends on the Lord for this ability and remembers the spiritual debt that was freely forgiven, though dearly paid for by Christ, ie the Gospel.

A recurring idea that I've been putting forth about the Gospel and Christian life is that salvation is only by faith. Christians are justified before God because a confession of both mouth and heart (Romans 10:9) that only through Christ's power of atonement can one be saved from God's wrath over the sin of mankind. Any attempt to 'try' and do things in order to attain even Christian goals are attempts to credit merit and favour to ourselves, and forfeits what Christians have been commanded to do in Proverbs 3:5-6 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.' Notice that this doesn't suggest any God's grace and forgiveness as a license to sin, which some early Christians did, and some Christians nowadays still do, sadly. The Bible reproaches strictly against that: 'Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?' (Romans 6:2).

Regarding the contention over James 2, which is best expressed by v26, "faith without deeds is dead". I find it a rather common misunderstanding to take this portion to mean that works also count in determining whether one is saved. I suppose proponents have mistaken justification for salvation, that Christianity is ironically teaching that one can accredit merit to himself in order to be made righteous by God. As an earlier post has touched on, a change in life, what the apostle Paul calls 'the new self' (Romans 4:22-24) is to do the moral will of God, ie what is stated in the Bible, such as loving one's enemies. James, the 'half-brother' of Jesus, wrote this to reproach nominal, self-professing Christians whose confessions are only in the mouth, but empty in heart, not to propose that if we do good, that will gain points in helping us complete our percentage of how saved we are. Salvation is complete at the time of confession and acceptance in that we do nothing to earn the full process, to 'level up'.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Sonnets from the Portuguese

X

Yet, love, mere love, is beautiful indeed
And worthy of acceptation. Fire is bright,
Let temple burn, or flax; and equal light
Leaps in the flame from cedar-plank or weed:
And love is fire. And when I say at need
I love thee ... mark! ... I love thee---in thy sight
I stand transfigured, glorified aright,
With conscience of the new rays that proceed
Out of my face toward thine. There's nothing low
In love, when love the lowest: meanest creatures
Who love God, God acceps while loving so.
And what I feel, across the inferior features
Of what I am, doth flash itself, and show
How that great work of Love enhances Nature's.

XLI

I thank all who have loved me in their hearts,
With thanks and love from mine. Deep thanks to all
Who paused a little near the prison-wall
To hear my music in its louder parts
Ere they went onward, each one to the mart's
Or temple's occupation, beyond call.
But thou, who, in my voice's sink and fall
When the sob took it, thy divinest Art's
Own instrument didst drop down at thy foot
To hearken what I said between my tears, . . .
Instruct me how to thank thee! Oh, to shoot
My soul's full meaning into future years,
That they should lend it utterance, and salute
Love that endures, from Life that disappears!


by Elizabeth Barrett Browning (1806-1861)

Friday, August 22, 2008

Haha pictures

The permanent solution to the unpalatably pallid appearance of sample food display sets


Many hands make light work.


No one would really blame you if you eat at your wound, blood, thrombi and all.


Cow and Chicken


He needs braces and some other lipstick colour.


Poor guy! I know, I pity him too.


Major fashion faux pas...at least in the part of the world where I'm at!


I'm seriously, absolutely, overwhelmingly convinced that this is the a major reason why people take the back seat in cabs.


Looks like ginseng.


And my good ol' friend, The Bass. How can I forget him in his cavemen party wear!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Summer Ends

What I did this summer:

Meeting God weekly with a group of friends
Sacked all tuition kids, except giving mercy on one
Competed on a daily diet of the same dish of chicken with rice

Travelled to Slovakia, where Asians were novelty exhibitions
(especially so when we were wearing ethnic costumes);
Salzburg, where the tour guide advised that if we were scared as the bus drove uphill
We could close our eyes, just like what the driver is doing;
Vienna, where insects and humidity never bothered the grass;
London, where cupcakes were made of bloodied hummingbirds
...and Piggotts, where lunch under the blue English hue came true!

Enjoyed quietude and greenery with Corrie ten Boom,
and then crying through the stale, greasy air with her afterwards.
Met Jerry Bridges and koinonia, currently also catching respectable sins,
Suffered from brain enlargosis after Don Carson's hijack,
Engaged as a temporary visionary fisherman with Joseph Stowell,
Know that my salvation has been WAY assured than AIA and Great Eastern's sneaky plots,
Attended a course on legitimate destruction with Nick Pollard,
and praising our Refuge in verse with King David.

Prayed for friends and with friends.
Sang music so beautiful I've never praised the Creator also of the Light invisible and intellectual that wonderfully,
Learning to love beyond the honeymoon phase.
Renewed to be more Christlike.

Friday, July 18, 2008

No More.

'The wild animals honour Me, the jackal and the owls,
because I provide water in the desert and streams in the wasteland,
to give drink to My People, My chosen,
the people I formed for myself that they may proclaim My praise.

Yet You have not called upon Me, O Jacob,
you have not wearied yourselves for Me, O Israel.
You have not brought Me sheep for burnt offerings,
nor honoured Me with your sacrifices.

I have not burdened you with grain offerings nor wearied you with demands for incense.
You have not brought any fragrant calamus for Me,
or lavished on Me the fat of your sacrifices.

But you have burdened Me with your sins
and wearied Me with your offenses.
I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions, for My own sake,
and remembers your sins no more.
'

Isaiah 43:20-25

Saturday, July 12, 2008

In Christ Alone



In Christ alone my hope is found;
He is my light, my strength, my song;
This cornerstone, this solid ground,
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My comforter, my all in all—
Here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone, Who took on flesh,
Fullness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness,
Scorned by the ones He came to save.
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied;
For ev'ry sin on Him was laid—
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay,
Light of the world by darkness slain;
Then bursting forth in glorious day,
Up from the grave He rose again!
And as He stands in victory,
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me;
For I am His and He is mine—
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death—
This is the pow'r of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
No pow'r of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home—
Here in the pow'r of Christ I'll stand.

Words and Music by Keith Getty and Stuart Townend

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Psalm 100


Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth.
Worship the Lord with gladness;
come before Him with joyful songs.
Know that the Lord is God.
It is He who made us, and we are His;
We are His people, the sheep of His pasture.


Enter His gates with thanksgiving
and His courts with praise;
give thanks to Him and praise His Name.


For the Lord is good and His love endures forever;
His faithfulness continues through all generations.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

My Paunchy Ragbag

If I were to ever make something to represent my current state, I'd make something like this.
(I googled 'swollen head' and I got this picture titled 'toothache', but never mind.)

So I shall unload some of my grey matter here:

In His Time, and the Beauty of Free Will
Sometimes our hearts get so ached from mourning for the sin of the world, backslid or lukewarm Christians, proud hearts that refuse the Gospel, and we ask, 'God, why wouldn't You show them that You are the Sovereign God whom all are to fear and to repent to?'. From here, we may have an inclination to go and help solve these problems, forgetting that we are but tools for God's use, who furthers His Will in His own time. As the Teacher says, 'God will bring to judgment both the righteous and the wicked, for there will be a time for every activity, a time for every deed' (Ecclesiastes 3:17). In God's time, He will save those whom He has chosen to be His sons. In His time too, will He revive the tepid love of His children, leading them back with the ties of love (Hosea 11:4), which He has been holding onto all along. In rushing God's Will, we pride in our own judgment and we become too arrogant to have faith that God will does His Will best in His own time. And so, amidst the urgency for resolution for the things and people we mourn over, we need to pray for wisdom - to know how to respond and how to interact with these people - and humility, that we might not put our own judgment higher than God's. Our God is Sovereign, surely He can bring this people back to Him instantaneously. But He loves us so much He wants us to return to Him willingly, convinced of our Father's love and the sin of our going astray from the narrow gate to Heaven. How beautiful is that!

Abstract Art can be used for God's sake too.
I just finished reading this book called 'Art For God's Sake' by Philip Graham Ryken, which offers a brief introduction to the biblical theology on arts. (I'm reminded of something I wrote in January this year, Greek Masterpieces from the Louvre Museum.) It helped clear some doubts I had about abstract art, which especially bugs me because I am involved in a choir who experiments greatly with aleatory and structure and sings aleatoric music annually in a church. Abstract art glorifies God too, because (1) God blesses all art forms just as He blessed Bezalel with the 'skill, ability and knowledge in all kinds of crafts' to make His tabernacle in Exodus 31, (2) it is capable of expressing Christian truths (not to say that all God-glorifying art have to be directly linked to Christianity in content). Such realisation has brought me to appreciate my conductor, Mrs Valarie Wilson, even more. The juxtaposition of singing On suuri sun rantas autius in aleatory with God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen interposed in unison shows structure among chaos, that Christ coming to earth brings 'tidings of comfort and joy' to the desolate, dystopian world modern and postmodern art portray. And also, that art is to be beautiful, good and true, just like how the dissonance in John Rutter's Hymn to the Creator of Light opens up to a meditative, quiet singing of the German hymn Deck Thyself, My Soul, With Gladness. Dante Alighieri sees abstract art is the highest level of excellence that an artist can attain, and these examples lead me to see that often, abstract art is a way for especially these artists, especially Christian ones, to glorify God, giving Him their best.

Every One is Equally Ugly, and thus Equally Justified before God

This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by His grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.
Romans 3:22-24

What do we do with the ugly histories we discovered about others? And even, the present ugly things that they are doing? There are two ways to go from here, one of which is to pray for them in love and mourning, the other is to gossip and share more information in groups of people, making this distinction of the Other. Looking at what Christ did in His earthy ministry, we know what the 'model answer' is. Internalising this 'model answer', not just knowing, would be a proof of the Holy Spirit giving life to our mortal bodies which are dead in sin (Romans 8:11). When responding to things that suddenly disfigure my impression of people around me, I need to be careful to not slant myself towards judging, only concentrating on criticising the speck of sawdust in the eye of that person, paying no attention to the plank in my own eye. We are all sinners. The wonderful thing is that it doesn't stop there: we have been justified by grace through faith in our Redeemer, and we are all Christians who are exposed to the temptation of sin, who can stumble.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Sanctifying our food through prayer

For every creature of God is good, and nothing is to be rejected, if it be received with thanksgiving: for it is sanctified through the word of God and prayer.
I Timothy 4:4-5
Having mentioned their hypocritical fastings, the apostle takes occasion to lay down the doctrine of the Christian liberty, which we enjoy under the gospel, of using God's good creatures,—that, whereas under the law there was a distinction of meats between clean and unclean (such sorts of flesh they might eat, and such they might not eat), all this is now taken away; and we are to call nothing common or unclean, Acts x. 15.

Here observe,
1. We are to look upon our food as that which God has created; we have it from him, and therefore must use it for him. 2. God, in making those things, had a special regard to those who believe and know the truth, to good Christians, who have a covenant right to the creatures, whereas others have only a common right. 3. What God has created is to be received with thanksgiving. We must not refuse the gifts of God's bounty, nor be scrupulous in making differences where God has made none; but receive them, and be thankful, acknowledging the power of God the Maker of them, and the bounty of God the giver of them: Every creature of God is good, and nothing to be refused, v. 4. This plainly sets us at liberty from all the distinctions of meats appointed by the ceremonial law, as particularly that of swine's flesh, which the Jews were forbidden to eat, but which is allowed to us Christians, by this rule, Every creature of God is good. Observe, God's good creatures are then good, and doubly sweet to us, when they are received with thanksgiving.—For it is sanctified by the word of God and prayer, v. 5. It is a desirable thing to have a sanctified use of our creature-comforts.

Now they are sanctified to us,
(1.) By the word of God; not only his permission, allowing us the liberty of the use of these things, but his promise to feed us with food convenient for us. This gives us a sanctified use of our creature-comforts.

(2.) By prayer, which blesses our meat to us. The word of God and prayer must be brought to our common actions and affairs, and then we do all in faith. Here observe, [1.] Every creature is God's, for he made all. Every beast in the forest is mine (says God), and the cattle upon a thousand hills. I know all the fowls of the mountains, and the wild beasts of the field are mine, Ps. l. 10, 11. [2.] Every creature of God is good: when the blessed God took a survey of all his works, God saw all that was made, and, behold, it was very good, Gen. i. 31. [3.] The blessing of God makes every creature nourishing to us; man lives not by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God (Matt. iv. 4), and therefore nothing ought to be refused. [4.] We ought therefore to ask his blessing by prayer, and so to sanctify the creatures we receive by prayer.


And so we do not say grace blindly, but with a heart of thanksgiving, enjoying the covenant right of Christian liberty that Christ has offered with His blood. How true and wondrous to know that God's gift of food is doubly sweet for Christians when we receive it with thanksgiving through prayer, because it is sanctified and we are once again reminded that we have been freed from the laws of the Torah and we can have fellowship with God through our Mediator.