Tuesday, November 29, 2011

more than a bundle of skills

Have you noticed something? We think of ourselves as a bundle of skills, talents and abilities. We are not persons, but abstract bundles with 'soft skills' and 'hard skills'. When meeting new people, one of the first questions we would ask is, "So what do you do?", or maybe a little more personal "So what do you do in your free time?" And we appraise the person from there.

We see the same self-defining ritual carry over onto social networking sites too. On Facebook, "Daphne Tan" does not really mean anything. What I am really defined by is:
Where I work at
Where I studied at
What and how many languages I know
Where I'm from
Where I live
When I was born
Followed by:
Where I used to work at
Where I used to study at
What my religion is
What music I like
What books I like
What films I like
What TV programs I like
What games I like
What my activities are
What I'm interested in 
What my website is
What my email is

Even on much less regulated platforms such as Twitter and blogs, it's so common for people to define themselves like this "Economic analyst. Avid reader. Guitarist. Father. Brother. Son. Husband.".

All this is totally fine (though it gets boring for someone with a restless mind like me). The problem is when people see that this is the only way to define ourselves and to seek our identities from. Facebook users who don't provide as much information are considered less social or even anti-social and uncooperative. People who are not as immersed in or have not internalized such neoliberal discourse are considered people who are less eloquent, intelligent, socially aware and in the case of the disenfranchised, stupid, socially awkward, immature, selfish, boring, and with little to no ambition in life.

This applies the same to the Church. We are more than our gifts and talents. We are more than our charisma, humor, extroversion, eloquence, intelligence, social consciousness, personal experience, intellectual opinion, critical minds, creativity...Jesus came to save the entire person - heart, mind, body and soul, not just the heart, mind and body, or just the soul. It is more mystical than we think it to be in our limited understanding of the spiritual that happens beyond our human dimensions of time and space. Yet it may not be an easy truth to accept. When a friend was confronted with this, he backed away and said "I'll think about it, whether it's true or not." Ironically it's sometimes so hard for us to let go of what we have always thought we were, even if it's giving us so much trouble and woe and may thus be false or problematic.

well she tries to believe it
that she's been given new life
but she can't shake the feeling
that it's not true tonight 
you are more than the choices that you have made
you are more than the sum of your past mistakes
you are more than the problems that you create
you've been remade


Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as a  living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God - this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Romans 12: 1-2 


Monday, November 28, 2011

life and society | legacy

My inaugural guest series starts today! The topic is "life and society". Here is an enlightening post that my friend Neil has written for this series on children and the importance of posterity in our fast-paced societies that value the immediately apparent and relevant.


I first met Neil in the summer of 2009 in Quezon, The Philippines, while on a training trip. Neil is actively involved in his community of Jesus-followers at his university, Uni. of Philippines Diliman. He's an avid reader and writes such good poetry! His poetry fascinates me because it paints such vivid pictures and evokes unsaid feelings so well. Check him out at http://mrkenri.tumblr.com


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Legacy
Neil Mark Enriquez

When I look at the stars in the clear night, it always brings me the old memories, vivid ones of my childhood. Memories that time could not erase. The longer and harder I look at them, the farther my memories would take me back. Good memories that feed the warmness in my soul. I looked at them and remembered that it was the same thing that I looked up during the night when I would dream of my future.

I was born in a generation when computers were not as fast as your smart phone and every book was a hidden gem of knowledge. It was time when cell phones were as big as blocks, and cassette tapes were the popular thing next to compact discs and where the walkman would find its way onto my belt.

The heat of the sun during the afternoon was not enough to stop me from going out and playing with my friends. Running was a way to survive the usual games of tag and dexterity was needed in war games and childish rivalries sometimes turned into something similar to Fight Club.

We are so prod that we lived in that generation; we grew up and made those good old things a part of us, which I'm sure we will never forget. We will never go back to those times again, we will always grow up but we will forget how it feels to be that child and play again.

Smart phones and portable gaming consoles find the hands of the younger generation today; most have never gone to play with kids in the streets and run with others. Not even getting a few bruises, the battle scars of fighting and experience. They will never see our days when we were always outside with the friends we saw and played with almost every day.

I believe they are missing out on the fun part of being a kid - plans on how to beat up the other rival group on the other block, and the best way to sneak out of the house is to climb the fence; and the best way to bring down your opponent in Tekken is to press all the buttons and pray that the ultimate combo comes up.

We grow up and it's true that we change and put childish things away, but the child in us never goes away. It's there and it will never go away because it is part of us and always will be. We will have our jobs and our lives will be much more complicated than it was before, and you will dream of those days when everything you asked for was within the reach of your mother's hand, like a toy or you bear.

When I see my baby cousins, I think and wish that I could share some of the best moments in my childhood with them. Let them play in the sun as I did, let them run as I did, let them do art on their first canvas (which was the wall). They will never share the same experiences as us, but we can let them feel what it was like during our time. Good old times...the brightest memories of our lives.

When we grow up we do not live for ourselves anymore. We live for others. When we graduate after high school and college, we think that we are here to change the world, yet we can't always get everyone's approval. The old guys will be skeptical about it and your peers might even see you as a man with big ambitions impossible to fulfill. You might even be disheartened and discouraged as you see that it is very hard to change the world with these persons around you.

I believe that the future belongs to the children, like Jesus said, "For the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to those who are like these children." He was talking about the power of children. The potential they possess is so much more than what we can think of. So I'd rather not change the old men or some of my peers, though I'd give some a chance. But children...I'd pour my time and teach them what the good things are, the time in the past that I enjoyed and loved, tell them of the future that they can be in.

If every kid in the world is being cared for and loved, I think the media would run out of bad news and they would have to change how they sell news or shut down. That's how good it is, it does not take an award-winning idea or prize-winning discovery to change the world. Although it helps, it doesn't make up a fraction of a power of change that love can bring. Being the person that the child looks up to or the person who inspires them is good enough.

That child in you will remember everything and will be the one side of you that will teach and inspire these kids. You can't talk to them in your adult mindset, you have to become a kid again in order to make a lasting connection with the younger ones. It will reward you a hundredfold or maybe even a thousand as these kids will also share with the next generation what their childhood was like growing up.

You make lasting memories with the children, like what my father did, and you will never forget how it was when you were a kid - those carefree and wonderful moments that never lose its colors and warmth. You can only share love when you know you are loved. You cannot give without sacrificing and when you give love you are also giving a part of yourself to others.

The next time someone looks up and sees the stars in the clear night, it will not be me but some other kid with wonderful memories of you or me.

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"Life and society" will feature various people from different walks of life and various parts of the world. New posts are up every Monday and Thursday at 6pm (GMT +8 / Singapore time) through the first week of 2012. On Thursday (Dec 1), I'll be featuring Daryl Wong, a musician friend whom I've done a couple of covers with, like this, this and this.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

folding a paper bag base

Sometimes, the things you wrap need an expanded base. One conventional way of doing it is to make an expanded base, like those at the bottom of paper bags.

I've been creating some 'envelope art' out of what I already have and pieces of artwork that often have supposedly lost their value since they no longer publicize. This is one simple folding method I use sometimes to substitute for just folding an end over and taping it down. I like that it chisels away the corners and tucks them in...subtle details to make my envelopes look nicer.  

This is a sub-post in relation to a guest post I am writing for The Re-Use Partnership based in Essex, UK.







1. After you fold up this end of the envelope, open the fold so that you see the inside of the envelope. If you want a huge base or a huge corner for tucking in, fold up a greater length.

2. Tuck the left and right spine of the envelope inwards and press it down.

Result: Two triangles with their arrows pointing outwards away from each other.




3. Fold one of the long sides inward into half. You can fold it more inward if you want a smaller base, but half is the minimum so that the base would be complete and stable.

4. Do the same for the other long side.

Result: An almost-ready base! Look below.



5. Tape the folded sides. I like to make my strips of tape longer than the length of the long sides so that I can tape across the entire length of the base to keep it sturdy.



If you are making the base for purely aesthetic reasons (i.e. you don't need the expandable base), continue on:

6. Fold the base into half along the crease it already has. All the folding and tape you used should be nicely hidden away now - like how you would fold up any paper bag!



And now you have a baby corner that is nicely tucked in.

Intense logos courtesy of Kult magazine's issue on animals 

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

peter pan collars

While writing a guest post for Essex-based The Re-Use Partnership, I came across these lovely photos of Peter Pan collars! You can make them on your own out of doily or cut velvet, organza, hemp etc. 






Monday, November 21, 2011

life and society



No Powerpoint to make posters now that I've lost my MacBook, but thank God for online poster makers. I can't outline the words to make them more reader-friendly - other than that I like it!

I've invited twelve friends to be part of my inaugural guest blogger series titled life and society. These guest bloggers are from various cities like Chengdu, Quito, and San Luis Potosi, and and they live in various parts of the world, such as Melbourne, Tucson, Quezon City, and Singapore.

My Filipino poet friend Neil Mark Enriquez will start this series off on November 28 (Monday), at 6pm Singapore time. Excited!!

Saturday, November 19, 2011

boys over girls

Went for my sister's prize giving ceremony in school today and remembered I went up the same stage when I was in Primary Two for getting 2nd in English for my level that year.

I was in 2nd place together with another classmate. But there was only one prize for 2nd place! There's still one more prize for a 3rd place though. Strangely, the teachers didn't invite the student who scored 3rd position for English. Instead, they told me while we were lined up for the stage that my classmate would be in 2nd place and I'll get 3rd.

Why? Because he's a guy and I'm a girl.

This would have not cut it today. But my mom and I were surprised but didn't say anything. 90s in Singapore was an ambivalent but gradual shift away from the Asian practice of valuing boys over girls. When I was little, I never got to eat a drumstick as my parents would give them to my two brothers. One day, I got upset and said that they were biased. They took my youngest brother's drumstick (poor him) and passed it to me but I refused and sulked in a corner. From then on, I got to eat drumsticks!

Just a little funny story. I don't care now that I had believed the teachers in all my bright-eyed innocence that it was right for me to be 'demoted', since I was doing well and I was recognized for it. I wonder how the person who should have got 3rd place felt...he/she wasn't acknowledged at all!

Oh, how times have changed!

artistic revolution

To quote Viknesh, an amazing singer friend:
all this talent. the films, the music, the ideas and thoughts! i feel an artistic revolution brewing in our island! and i'm excited to be part of it!

"Broken Butterfly", by Run Neon Tiger



"The Last Queen", by Cheating Sons

Check out Viknesh and his friend who's an innovative fingerpicking guitarist, Shun. They form a duo called Vik & Shun.


Excited!!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

"we are far too easily pleased"

If there lurks in most modern minds the notion that to desire our own good and earnestly hope for the enjoyment of it is a bad thing, I submit that this notion has crept in from Kant and the Stoics and is no part of the Christian faith. Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.

C.S. Lewis, The Weight of Glory

Up to the age of 30 or beyond it, poetry of many kinds...gave me great pleasure, and even as a schoolboy I took intense delight in Shakespeare.... Formerly pictures gave me considerable, and music very great, delight. But now for years I cannot endure to read a line of poetry: I have tried to read Shakespeare, and found it so intolerably dull that it nauseated me. I have also almost lost any taste for pictures or music.... I retain some taste for fine scenery, but it does not cause the exquisite delight which it formerly did.... My mind seems to have become a kind of machine for grinding general laws out of large collections of facts, but why this should have caused the atrophy of that part of the brain alone, on which the higher tastes depend, I cannot conceive.... The loss of these tastes is a loss of happiness, and may possibly be injurious to the intellect, and more probably to the moral character, by enfeebling the emotional part of our nature.
Charles Darwin (in his autobiography)
(As cited in John Piper's Desiring God)
Could it be that my refusal to obey God in areas of my life which matter the most is due to me preferring mediocre pleasures - fluctuating, temporary, uncertain, and ultimately leaves me when I die?

Monday, November 7, 2011

blossoms red



  1. "I lay in dust life’s glory dead, and from the ground there blossoms red life that shall endless be." That's blood! George Matheson has such an intriguing and fascinating way to describe death and the eternal life that comes after. 

O Love, that will not let me go.

So true even though it was written in 1882.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Hope in a mad world

The troubles of life and evil of the human heart can weigh on you so much they threaten to crush you...and hence this set of counter songs.


 Mad World by Gary Jules

Hope by Alli Rogers

Hope
is strength to walk along
With music to my song
I'll be redeemed
Light a fire in the cold
Buy me back where I am sold
I'll be redeemed

All the waves of time are crashing
And our innocence is gone

Hope - I'll be waiting
And I'll be holding onto
I am never knowing
So I'll be holding onto
Hope

Stay when dirt on my face
From my ravaging and waste
I'll be redeemed
Stay close where sand is at my feet
Let me hear the parting sea
I'll be redeemed

If I wait till light is shining
I may never find the day

Hope - I'll be waiting
And I'll be holding onto
I am never knowing
So I'll be holding onto
Hope

So quick to turn from promise
So quick to ask the questions
So softly the moon shines down tonight
And all my soul is silent

Hope - I'll be waiting
And I'll be holding onto
I am never knowing
So I'll be holding onto
Hope
Jesus says, "Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly." 

Matthew 11:29-30


"Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory.
 
We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.

When we were utterly helpless, Christ came at just the right time and died for us sinners. Now, most people would not be willing to die for an upright person, though someone might perhaps be willing to die for a person who is especially good. But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners. And since we have been made right in God’s sight by the blood of Christ, he will certainly save us from God’s condemnation. For since our friendship with God was restored by the death of his Son while we were still his enemies, we will certainly be saved through the life of his Son. So now we can rejoice in our wonderful new relationship with God because our Lord Jesus Christ has made us friends of God."
Romans 5:1-11

My life would have crushed and shredded itself from inside out if I didn't know Jesus, this real Hope that has been healing and redeeming lives for 2000 years and is waiting to be fully realized at the right time to bring the entire universe back into cosmic and spiritual perfection...so that "what is mortal may be swallowed up by life". I can't be more thankful for such a privilege and salvation.

Friday, November 4, 2011

20 songs you can't sing at a wedding

Thinking of songs suitable for a wedding can be some pain in the donkey if you are me. I ran through in my head some of the songs I like and sadly, most of them won't make the cut. Here's ten of them:

1. Bible Belt | Dry the River
"Lo and behold, your mother is drinking again"

2. If You Think You Need Some Lovin' | Pomplamoose
"If you think you need some money, then honey that's just funny cos I got none"

3. Lights Out Words Gone | Bombay Bicycle Club
"Can you feel the leeches bite that boy that she took out tonight?"

4. The Things We Can and Cannot Keep | Alli Rogers
"Some things will tarry, some will return to dust"

5. Middle of the Bed | Lucy Rose
"Do you really want me back?"

6. Scarborough Fair | various, like Simon & Garfunkel's version
"She once was a true love of mine"

7. The Ladder | Andrew Belle
"I will be the one to prey upon you sweetly"

8. To Darkness | Mumford & Sons and The Dharohar Project
"Hold my sin above my head, and take me home instead"

9. King of Anything | Sara Bareilles
"Who cares if you disagree?"

10. Dog Days Are Over | Florence + The Machine
"Leave all your loving and longing behind"


What about songs in general? Some don't seem any more suitable for a wedding. Here's another ten:

11. Love the Way You Lie | Rihanna ft. Eminem
"Imma tie you the bedpost and set you on fire"

12. Girly Man
"Welcome the dude who ain't the buyer of mugs", and
"KILL HER!!!!!!"

13. It's My Party | Lesley Gore
"It's my party and I cry if I want to"

14. Barbie Girl | Aqua
"I'm a blonde bimbo girl in a fantasy world"

15. Shock | B2ST
"Everytime I shock"

16. Forget You | Cee Lo Green
"I pity the fools who fall in love with you"

17. Video Games | Lana Del Rey
"I heard that you like the bad girls. Honey, is that true?"

18. Maneater | Nelly Furtado
"She's a maneater, make you buy cars, make you cut cards, wish you never ever met her at all"

19. Beautiful Monster | Ne-Yo
"She's a monster but I don't mind"

Maybe this is good news or bad - presenting to you the final song...

20. In The End | Linkin Park
"In the end, it doesn't even matter"

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

happy birthday?

My past birthdays have been meaningful or happy. Last year I spent it in school and at a wake. But this year's seemed like neither. And it makes me ask: why do we wish people 'happy birthday'? Won't it create a false sense of privileged entitlement that people try to seek or fulfill? How does a person congratulate himself for his years of existence? Is the day I was born really my day? I didn't create it, neither do I own it, nor should I expect that others should please or maybe even pander to me and my desires.

Which firstly, makes all the birthday wishes, handmade and bought presents, lovely notes, and a surprise birthday dinner all so unexpected.

Which secondly, helps me to deflate myself. I had expected my birthday to be nice and pleasant: no school, sleeping in for the morning, chilling at home, opening a mystery package, thanking people for their wishes, and go to bed. It didn't quite turn out this way. I got woken up by a quarrel, and when I finally woke up (there's a difference), I got some bad news. It wasn't bad news about me, but it involved people I love. I was reeling from shock and anger so much that my hands were shaking. I'd be lying if I said it didn't affect me the entire day, especially since the bad news may take weeks or months to be reconciled.

My first reaction was 'Thanks for the great news on my birthday', the second was 'God, you are cruel to me, even on my birthday'.

But who said it was my day in the first place? What makes me think that all should go well and my birthday should be very comfortable - all in the name of self-preservation?

I know that the God I worship is not cruel, but it was a portrayal I created out of selfishness and arrogance. He is Sovereign and he is Love - mushy love, fatherly love, tough love, healing love, liberating love. He showed it to me by calming me down and counseling me constantly, teaching me to pray for the people I was angry towards. It's very incredible that my intense emotions simmered down in just ten minutes or so as I asked him for help on how to feel and think about the problem, and I know that it would not have been possible by human effort unless I choose apathy. Even though it hurts, I will choose to continue loving and thus sharing the hurting burdens that people I love carry, even if it's on my birthday.

So my point is, birthdays aren't always happy. Thankfully God keeps the peace of Christ in my heart. The peace of Christ, which does not fluctuate or cease to exist depending on conditions external to the person's soul, but stays the same even in the face of physical death. According to Matthew 14:27, Jesus said to his twelve selected followers (aka The Twelve Apostles) on the night he knew he was to be arrested and crucified,

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
He said that because he knew that if the good religious people clamped down on him the leader, surely they will exterminate those who were to take over his leadership (John 15: 18-21, 16: 2-4, Mark 14: 27, Matthew 26: 31). And it did happen in AD 64 when Nero framed those who follow Jesus as the culprits for the Great Fire of Rome, so they fled for the mountains and further up east into Europe.

For this sobering lesson of humility and love, I can only say - thank you for your love and mercy, Jesus.